Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Two Weeks In

Well hey there! Remember me? I'm alive and well and starting to recover from the intense "I have a newborn" haze that has enveloped us for the last two weeks! Two. Weeks. I can't quite wrap my head around the fact that it has been so long and yet so little time since our little guy was born. Two weeks already!

Seems like time for a quick brain dump, if only so I remember all these thoughts later.

Today is my very first day as a (temporary) stay-at-home mom. There is no one in the house but me and the baby, and I will be the first to admit that it is a little bit terrifying. C went back to work this morning, and there are no grandmas or sister-in-laws or friends stopping in to help today. (Tomorrow, though, and Thursday, luckily, I get grandmas!).  Just me and the tiny dictator today. I realize I will just do the exact same things I've been doing all day, but having to do it with no backup and no one in the house to reassure me that it's going ok is a bit daunting. 

C has turned into the most amazing daddy in absolutely no time. I always knew he would be great, but he has blown me away in the last two weeks. He handles everything so fantastically - both the baby, and me following major abdominal surgery (C section recovery is NO joke and it never occurred to me that I'd have to do it!). He has transitioned so smoothly to our new normal while I am fumbling along behind him trying to get both feet on the ground. I swear, I thought I loved him as much as possible before - my heart has grown a million times over. Sorry for the intense sap, but it's the truth. I am so lucky to have such a great teammate to raise this baby with.

Having a baby is NOTHING like I expected it to be. I'm not entirely sure what I was expecting, but this isn't it. It's so much better and so much harder and so much more tiring than I ever imagined. 

Post-partum hormones are one of the most insane things I have ever experienced. Never had I had the ability to cry at the drop of a hat like I did for the last week or so. Thankfully, that seems to have improved a bit in the last few days, but I'm still teetering on the edge. I never had crazy pregnancy hormones like some people do, but following the birth... Man. I was not prepared!

Breastfeeding - where to start? It is intuitive, in a way, and at the same time, so hard and unnatural for me. I'm sure I will get better at it with time, but for right now, every feeding session is a jumble of clothing and both hands are involved and I'm usually sweating by the time it's done. Sounds lovely, right? Add that to the list of things I thought I knew about but really didn't at all. 

We have such an incredible "village" that is going to help us raise this baby, and for that I am eternally grateful. I almost certainly have not thanked our parents, siblings, and friends enough for all they have done for us lately. Everything from bringing food to cleaning the house to doing laundry to just holding the baby while C and I rest - it's been all hands on deck and I am so appreciative of all the help we have at our fingertips. I know so many people don't have that type of support system, and I have no idea how I'd be managing this life-altering adjustment without all of our people. Thank you, to our people. Love you so much! 

I started Friday Night Lights as my breastfeeding / home all day entertainment. Why did I never watch this show before?! Why didn't anyone tell me to watch it? Sheesh. (C has been telling me for years. I finally listened.)

My goals for today were to take my thank you notes out to the mail box, eat all three meals, and shower, while keeping the baby happy, healthy, and fed. So far, I have been to the mailbox and eaten breakfast, and the baby is still sleeping. Wish me luck on the rest of the day! :) see you again... Some day. No guarantees anymore! The tiny dictator rules all over here. 

Monday, January 4, 2016


I owe a 40-week bump-date (just to be consistent and because I don't want to lose the memories) but it will be delayed in coming because I am a little busy... 

We are so in love with our new arrival, who made his debut in a whirlwind of drama over the weekend. I'll be spending the next few weeks kissing his cheeks and recovering from my emergency C-section (so much for birth plans!!). Oh, and celebrating my birthday on Friday with the best little present ever! Love love love. 

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Bump-date: 39 Weeks

My desire to take my weekly chalkboard pictures is usually overpowered by my desire to stay in my sweatpants on the couch...
so for 39 weeks, we will settle for a picture from Christmas Eve, which was actually the 39 week mark.
Merry Christmas from the (almost) three of us!

How far along:
39 weeks

Baby’s size: a small pumpkin... or a cat. Cats, cats, cats!

Sleep: still laughing at those people who have recommended I "stock up on sleep now" - obviously you've never been 9 months pregnant and tried to sleep through the night!

Loving: Christmas cookies, Christmas candy, the steak fajita salads my sister made us for dinner one night - so delicious!!

Loathing: trying to roll over, not being able to drink special holiday drinks with my family, being hot everywhere I go because it's been 70* in late December!...

Movement: every direction but down lately. Little man is definitely out of space and ready to vacate - he just apparently doesn't know which way to go!

Labor signs: nothing really - having some Braxton-Hicks contractions, and starting to efface and dilate, but not enough to count. Insert crying emoji here.

Symptoms: round-ligament and groin pain, some abdominal cramping, tiredness, swelling in my legs and feet if I am too active

Mood: ready to get this party started!! Anxious, nervous, eager... it's a range these days.

Husband: assembled the Pack 'n Play, moved the swing to the living room, and is ready to be the one who gets to hold the baby for a change.

Can't wait for: my due date!! And ringing in 2016 later this week - maybe with a baby on hand??

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Christmas Eve Eve

Merry Christmas Eve Eve! I will be honest, while I am in full "holiday" mode over here, I haven't really wrapped my head around the fact that the actual DAY we are leading up to is just two days away. I feel like everyone is saying that (OMG, where did this year go?!) but it truly just feels different for me this year.

Maybe it's the weather - 65 and pouring rain today. That's a pretty terrible version of a "white Christmas" and I'm not pleased.

Maybe it's the pending BABY that is currently occupying every aspect of my life.

Who knows.

That said, I did get Christmas decorations out, Christmas cookies baked, and Christmas cards mailed to all our friends and loved ones. It looks and feels like the holidays, and I'm looking forward to spending a few days with our families this weekend. My sister is here for the rest of the week, helping me around the house and doing last minute holiday prep. My parents and my uncle will be here tomorrow night, and we will see C's family on Saturday for traditional Christmas lasagna :) then... any time after that... Baby W is welcome to make his arrival!

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas (if you celebrate) and there is no coal in any of your stockings. Good tidings to all!

I was completely unable to settle on a Christmas card, so I picked two... it was the same price, and I got to have both of my choices. :) Merry Christmas from our little family to yours!

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Bump-date: 38 Weeks

I completely failed at taking a picture this week - whoops. Here, let me create a visual for you. Look at my picture from 37 weeks, and imagine it looking a little tired-er and a little more frumpy. That's pretty much the name of the game this week. There are no glamour shots to be had around here.

Instead, I'll leave you this:

How far along: 38 weeks

Baby’s size: a spaghetti squash. Funny, I have one of those sitting on my counter...

Stretch marks: none that I've seen, but I'm developing horribly itchy, dry, winter skin :( lotioning like crazy, and hoping that will keep the stretch marks away, too!

Sleep: on and off, per usual lately. Thank goodness for naps!

Loving: the peppermint chocolate chip milkshake from Chick-Fil-A. One upside to it being 70 degrees in December? Ordering a milkshake doesn't seem strange at all. I've only had one, and it hit the SPOT - it's taking effort to keep myself from going to get them regularly ;)

Loathing: nothing new, really. I kind of feel like I'm living in Groundhog's Day - everything is pretty much the same lately.

Movement: still wiggling around like crazy. The doctor has told me to keep an eye out for "decreased fetal movement," which would be a bad sign at this point - don't worry about that one, Doc!!

Labor signs: absolutely nothing. Sigh.

Symptoms: I have been having some wacky dreams lately. In the last week or so alone, I've dreamed that I've gone into labor, not gone into labor, gone into labor but nothing ever happened after that, and that I gave birth to a toddler. Obviously, my brain is working on overdrive imaging all the scenarios that could await me... Eek. Other symptoms include increasing round ligament pain, lower back soreness, nausea when I eat a full-sized meal... Wahoo!

Mood: festive for Christmas, but impatient for this little waiting game to be over! Also starting to develop some pre-birthing anxiety... I hate not knowing how or when anything is going to happen, and it's really setting in that it could be any time now (or NOT any time now, and I could have weeks to go!)

Husband: got our car seats installed and checked by the Sheriff's office over the weekend, and put the final stamp of approval on the nursery! I think it's actually "finished" for the time being, and now all we need is the little dude. Super excited to share that room make-over soon.

Can't wait for: Christmas! And baby, of course.