Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Stronger than yesterday.

Yes, that is a Britney reference, and I don’t hate it.

Last night, I went to yoga for the first time in a month. The last time I tried, it just hurt too badly – the muscles in my back weren’t ready for it, and I spent most of the class in Child’s Pose (which was nice! But not really what I was there for).  I decided last night to give it another shot, as my back has been feeling pretty good lately. I took it easy, and modified the poses as I felt necessary. I didn’t push myself at all; I just enjoyed each pose and the peace that comes with being in a dark, quiet room. I felt good afterwards.  I’m sore today, but it’s the sore that comes from stretching muscles that have been dormant for a while. It’s not an injury.

I think that I’m really, truly back.

I’ve been to BodyPump a couple of times in the last few weeks, and it doesn’t hurt. Granted, I’m using baby weights (and it’s so frustrating – just a few months ago I was lifting 3x what I’m lifting now), but it feels good to be back in the class and not have any pain and be able to trust my body.  It feels good to be moving back into my routine.

This weekend, I’m running a half marathon. If you had told me when I ran that first 8k in March, that 9 months later I’d be gearing up to do 13.1 miles, I probably just would have laughed at you. That was always a thing that I said “I could never do.” And I wouldn’t even consider it! But here I am. A few months ago, I was in so much pain that putting on pants or getting out of bed was enough to take my breath away. I thought for sure that I was going to have to abandon my goal. But here I am, a few months later, having worked my way back, and ready to go after it. It may not be as great as I’d originally intended, but I’m going to do it. And then next time, I’m going to do better.

Every day, I’m a little healthier. I’m back to square one: my endurance is lower, my muscles are weaker, everything is a little bit harder. But every day I’m a little stronger, and what else could I really want?
That, my friends, is the face of a girl who's
really, really happy to be back at the gym.
PS. Currently working on my half-marathon playlist, and you can bet your booty I’ll be jamming to a little B.Spears while I run! Love.

1 comment :

Lisa said...

Now is nothing but a mile away. My loneliness ain't killing me no more. I. AM. STRONGER.